A year ago on 2/22/14 I lost someone very close to me. I have lost loved one’s before but my grieving for this particular person was extremely different. I think because I was younger and just a child when I experienced my first loss it was extremely different. When we are young in age and a child, I believe we process loss in a very different way. Sure we can experience sadness as a child but we seem to bounce back a lot easier. We have grown ups to handle everything for us and make things better. I remember tons of family and friends around as if it was a party, when it was actually not. As a child I didn’t really understand and I think that is natures way of protecting us because we as children have not matured enough to actually handle and process our emotions.

As an adult losing someone very close to me, I have experienced all of what this loss means. Emotionally, it’s a flood gate and a roller coaster ride. To say the least! I experienced so many stages. First came a rush of sadness & fear. Then disbelief. I mean I called and texted as if it was some sick joke. Then there is anger. Wow, anyone that knows me knows I’m a lover not a fighter (unless it’s for the under dog or a cause) this last year I myself even knowing better, even being a Life Coach for a living, meditating, staying as balanced as possible, I have struggled with an anger of my loss. leaving me with so many unanswered questions. I also think as we become older we understand how precious life is. How blessed we are in so many ways and how important our health is and to live in each moment as if it’s our last because we really never know. Embrace life and the time we have with our loved ones. Of course responsibly.

I have had the ying and yang of emotions because I also know that we are all the same energy and that the love I have lives on. We will always be apart of each other and we are always connected. So why waste time feeling anger especially when anger is not a part of my journey and how I live my life. I’m trying to live a joyful happy life and even if others don’t understand my grieving process it’s okay because we all go through each stage in our own way and our own time.

I realize with all this being said, I had to experience each faze of emotion to heal. With the process of healing, I was reminded of what I already know. again, we will always be connected and a part of each other because we are all of the same energy and to never forget that. Always put LOVE where any pain lives. Put LOVE where any sadness is. Put LOVE where any anger is. LOVE always rules over negativity. Love is the answer and heals us the fastest. When we consciously replace a negative feeling with LOVE, LOVE will take over. It is stronger, feels good, is high vibrational and I truly believe LOVE is the answer to everything.

Meaning make your choices for the right reasons. Not everything in life is easy but if you have to make difficult choices to Rise Above make sure that your choice is coming from a loving place.

Light & Love,

Samantha Bennington