In November, I was targeted and cyber bullied by Amanda Bynes, followed by Kate Beckinsale, Emilia Clarke and Charlize Theron. They were insecure because they had it in their minds that I dated their ex Seth MacFarlane. I used Twitter as an outlet to express myself in free thought and what I was enduring at that time in regards to the harassment. I was receiving violent emails, racial slurs, and death threats. I was victim-shamed, hospitalized because my Lupus flared up and had to take a host of antibiotics. This was an epic fail display of womanhood, a group of insecure and deeply unhappy women teaming up on a sick girl. After awhile, because I had been discussing it on Twitter a group of his fans began stalking and harassing me too. They would write personal information regarding me on online forums and spread nasty rumors about me. I couldn’t go a day without being attacked, abused and harassed. I met Seth MacFarlane from mutual friend because our families knew one another. After about 3 months passed November, it became too much and lashed out at Seth on Twitter. I said some things I regret but I was again, shamed for speaking up about my harassment which I endured. I was hospitalized, traumatized, and victimized. However, I still attempted to support him. He supposedly cared for me but in actuality he didn’t. He was using me and allowing others to walk all over me. He worsen my heart condition and triggered my PTSD. He allows his fans to disrespect me and his exes to abuse me. I never deserved either because I am nice girl. I never had any problems on the internet until I came in contact with Seth MacFarlane. He has never reached out and apologized, though, I have attempted to make amends for the mean things I said. I realize that he doesn’t care about me. He never did and never will. I was subjected to narcissistic abuse, gang stalking, and gas lighting. It started in Oct and hasn’t stopped. I’m hurting so very deeply and struggling to understand how someone I could cared about would ever do this to me. I realize to him that I am trash, worthless and have no value, to HIM. That’s why he treats me such a way and his fans have stalked, harassed, and bullied me. My heart hurts deeply and I wish I never met him. He has brought nothing but sadness, drama, and misery into my life. He doesn’t care for me in any capacity. I supported him because I care but now I refuse to because he is a monster. I became his punching bag for his exes and fans, all because I decided to fight back. I am recovering and I know he doesn’t care anything about me. He humiliated me before the world countless of times and I am tired. He made me feel so ugly and low about myself, just because he could. I’m so hurt and I am so tired. Hollywood is very toxic and apparently full of deeply unhappy people. I don’t want money nor attention. I just want to be left alone so I am deleting my Twitter because I have had enough abuse. I don’t deserve it, I never did. My heart is shattered but I will survive, I always do.
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